This is how the Lord is helping me

This is the Lord has helped me in these 8 years that I've had the colostomy and that I've become a born again Christian, my colostomy isn't an easy journey but I'm alive today because of the Lord and I'm thankful he saved my life that night. The Lord has helped me in many ways, but he saved me from religion. I want to go volunteer at the cancer center and save cancer patience and I know what it's like to go through the struggle between the pain and living in hospitals. I probably could save people and if their cancer is worse and they won't make it I could tell them how the Lord sent his son to save us and how Jesus died for their life so they could have a better life in heaven and be without pain and they wouldn't need to suffer. I could be a light to them, I am a light in so many peoples eyes such as my neighbor I got him to stop drinking. Jesus let my disabilities happen to me because he knew that I could save people through my disabilities. My dad is in heaven with Jesus Christ and I am thankful that Jesus died for me so one day I won't need to suffer in pain and spasms. But in the mean time on earth I can be a light and tell people about Jesus Christ and tell them how awesome he is, and he is real. I want to help people and save people and tell people how Jesus died for them, I know that I inspire people. My friends at church tell me I inspire them even though I can't do things when they tell me that I inspire them it helps me. But the Lord is amazing and I love him he has sent me my friend Dawn and my baby Lacy I love them two and I'm sure my dad is very proud of me.

God has given me these two tallents

God has given me two awesome talents one is reading and the other is writing, I read 116 pages tonight. It's amazing how I can read even though I'm this disabled. But in God's eyes I'm not disabled I'm human and he sees how smart and I'm talented, he looks how what I can do such as get people out of religion and I'm able to get people to get stop drinking and my pastor thinks I'm amazing and I'm sure my dad is really proud of me. I can go everywhere myself and I'm not afraid to show that I love Jesus Christ. I love worship music the real worship music I have it on my phone and it helps me allot I've grown up in these four years that I've given my whole heart to Christ.

In God's eyes I'm just like my sisters, he won't look at my mistakes he'll look at what I've done and all my talents. I compare myself to my sisters because I want to be them but then I think would I be getting people out of things such as getting people out of religion? Once I gave my heart to Christ in 2008 it was the best thing that I've done. Yes I believed in him before but I wasn't fully looking at him like I am now, I look at him a different way now. I amaze my mom and sisters as well. I have amazing friends who believe in me and they tell me "you amaze us because you've gone through so much but you've never given up and you don't let your disabilities stop you" It's amazing what Jesus can do when you give your whole heart to him and I go through so much but I'm an inspiring young lady.

Every day I pray for a good boyfriend who would be able to calm down at nights, my pain and spasms get worse. I remember two years ago when I saw my youngest sister get married that night I cried allot because I wanted to be her and when I see her wedding band on her ring it hurts my inner soul. But it's made me a stronger person, everyone has a hard some people don't show it. I will find my soul mate until then I'll keep my focus on God and focus on what he is having me do through my disabilities. My disabilities are making me the person who I am today and if I wasn't disabled who knows where I'd be, my mind probably wouldn't be focused on Jesus. So in a way I'm glad that I am disabled, being single is making me stronger and my soul is getting stronger. I've had awesome relationships but God has removed them in my life for a reason. I was engaged but after a year I noticed that he wasn't the one for me even though he was nice. But my dad taught me that the guy needs to put God first such as I do, they need to go to church and believe that Jesus died for them and the most important bible verse that is John 3:16.