Lacy and my testimony

November 2004 I got a emergency colostomy and I was rushed to the hospital. I hated it at first and when I realized I couldn’t get it reversed than it became more frustrating.
On my 22nd birthday God asked me “what would you like for your birthday?” I said “a friend”. I remember coming home from college and my mom said “we need to stop at Mary’s” so we did. They put this little dog on my lap and I asked her “where did you come from?” she looked at me  “who made you?” I said “God” and she wagged her tail.
March 19th she was my dog and she came home and she was happy to see me she knew that I was her mom, in her mind I’m her mommy. When we went to bed that night I went to touch my colostomy and she bit me and God said “you need to tell me you accept it and she’ll never bit you again” so I said “fine I accept it” I named my friend Lacy.
Lacy is a huge blessing in my life she’s gotten me off my anti depressants twice when doctors said it wasn’t possible. In 2009 the doctors told me “you won’t get off antidepressants” I said to them “Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." Matt 19:26”. Lacy got me off the antidepressants God created her for me and I thank God for her every night.
Lacy is so cute, she has the biggest ears and the bushy tail. I call her “my fluff ball”. When I come home from somewhere she goes nuts and it’s hard not to be depressed with her. At nights she always wants me to hold her and give her a nightly hug and a kiss then she lays in bed and she steals my blankets and pillows.
If you revert God it equals- dog and if you revert dog it’s God. If more people believed in God and had a personal relationship with him their lives would be allot better. Lacy is a huge blessing in my life and I love her so much, I thank God for every night. My colostomy hasn’t been an easy journey but on November 2nd 2012 I’ve it had for eight years so God picked the right doctor to save my life that night and he gave me the best antidepressant there ever could be. In the bible it says "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. Matt 7:7”

My testimony

A ongoing journey with trails. But with God’s help I am making it through my life. So God I want to thank you for everything that you have helped me through and whatever trials I will face and people will walk out of my life and try to discourage me and make me feel bad about myself but I know that you will never let me down or make me feel bad about myself.

My name is Minna I was born February 25th 1983 to Mikko and Helena, I have 2 older sisters. Miia, Maiju and one younger sister. I’ve been disabled my whole life, I’ve never let my disability stop me from doing anything. When I was in the 8th grade my parents put me at a special school for disabled people, there we learned how to do things on our own. We still had our normal classes such as science, history, math, reading. But we also had psychical and occupational therapy as well. When I entered high school I went into this program called student independent living program there they taught us to do our own shopping and manage our own personal care attendants. I use to be able to walk, shower and transfer myself. I left Mass Hospital School in 2002, the memories that I have there I’ll never forget. After I left there, I went into public school and they put me in a life skills program, I didn’t learn much there. I learned all the basic skills, and by the time I was done there I could no longer walk on a walker. I went from part time pca to full time pca,

When I was 16 I lost my dad to stage 3 colon cancer, I was still at the special school for disabled. I was in his hospital room on December 22 1999 and I told him that he could go home to be with the Lord. He told me that there is a better doctor than these human ones. After he went home I took the cancer and the loss of my dad on to sports and summer 2000 I won 6 gold medals that was in Iowa, when I came back to Mass I left one on his grave and put “to dad, Love always Minna”.

All though I’ve gone through all these trails in my life I never gave up on God. I miss when I could do more for myself, and I wasn’t this disabled. But I think that God chose me out of my sisters to be disabled because he knew that I wouldn’t give up.  I think that all these trails have made me the person that I am today, I am a strong person. I go everywhere myself, and I love to inspire people with my testimony. Before I was a born again Christian I use to swear and drink but July 2008 I gave my heart to God and that was the best thing that I’ve done. In 2008 the doctors thought that I tried to kill myself, the last day that I was there the doctor told me “you’ll never get off antidepressants”. I said “with man nothing is possible but with God all things are possible.” Summer 2009 I was off the antidepressants, and if ever see that doctor again I will tell him that same bible verse. Here are two quotes that are for me “tough times never last but tough people do” and “if God brings it to you, he’ll bring you through it!”

Even though I am disabled I am able to save people, I got someone to stop drinking. when he told me that it lifted my spirits up and the whole night I was thinking “I did what?”. But God is using me in a powerful way and helping others to bring them to him before he returns. The last time I drank was summer 2008 and I will never drink again. I didn’t think that my testimony would have made a huge impact on my neighbor and I am glad I was able to help him.  Here is one of my favorite bible verses : For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

I’ve had a lot of personal care attendants in 2006 I got this one woman, when she first started to work with me I would swear and I wasn’t going to church. When her season was finished with me July 2010 I was a born again Christian and I stopped swearing and drinking. She was the hardest one to let go, because she was with me for four years. I remember writing her the letter and I gave her the letter and as I went back to my house and she went home we both cried. I’ve said goodbye to so many people in my life. But that’s how life is and whoever reads this I hope that I’ve inspired you. If you are disabled and your thinking that you can’t do anything give your heart to Jesus and he’ll always be there for you when people let you down. But even if you aren’t disabled and your life isn’t going the way you want it too, then give your whole heart to Christ and he will make your path a lot smoother. I still get discouraged but I have Jesus and I know when people let me down or treat me differently because I am disabled I know in Jesus eyes the one who created me I’m not different and he does not look at what I cannot do instead he looks at what I can do. I’ve seen all my sisters get married, I’ve been through allot in my life but Jesus has always been right beside me and he will always be right beside me. Since I’ve become a born again Christian I’ve realized that it’s not about a religion that brings people to God it’s a personal relationship between the person and God.

This is how the Lord is helping me

This is the Lord has helped me in these 8 years that I've had the colostomy and that I've become a born again Christian, my colostomy isn't an easy journey but I'm alive today because of the Lord and I'm thankful he saved my life that night. The Lord has helped me in many ways, but he saved me from religion. I want to go volunteer at the cancer center and save cancer patience and I know what it's like to go through the struggle between the pain and living in hospitals. I probably could save people and if their cancer is worse and they won't make it I could tell them how the Lord sent his son to save us and how Jesus died for their life so they could have a better life in heaven and be without pain and they wouldn't need to suffer. I could be a light to them, I am a light in so many peoples eyes such as my neighbor I got him to stop drinking. Jesus let my disabilities happen to me because he knew that I could save people through my disabilities. My dad is in heaven with Jesus Christ and I am thankful that Jesus died for me so one day I won't need to suffer in pain and spasms. But in the mean time on earth I can be a light and tell people about Jesus Christ and tell them how awesome he is, and he is real. I want to help people and save people and tell people how Jesus died for them, I know that I inspire people. My friends at church tell me I inspire them even though I can't do things when they tell me that I inspire them it helps me. But the Lord is amazing and I love him he has sent me my friend Dawn and my baby Lacy I love them two and I'm sure my dad is very proud of me.

God has given me these two tallents

God has given me two awesome talents one is reading and the other is writing, I read 116 pages tonight. It's amazing how I can read even though I'm this disabled. But in God's eyes I'm not disabled I'm human and he sees how smart and I'm talented, he looks how what I can do such as get people out of religion and I'm able to get people to get stop drinking and my pastor thinks I'm amazing and I'm sure my dad is really proud of me. I can go everywhere myself and I'm not afraid to show that I love Jesus Christ. I love worship music the real worship music I have it on my phone and it helps me allot I've grown up in these four years that I've given my whole heart to Christ.

In God's eyes I'm just like my sisters, he won't look at my mistakes he'll look at what I've done and all my talents. I compare myself to my sisters because I want to be them but then I think would I be getting people out of things such as getting people out of religion? Once I gave my heart to Christ in 2008 it was the best thing that I've done. Yes I believed in him before but I wasn't fully looking at him like I am now, I look at him a different way now. I amaze my mom and sisters as well. I have amazing friends who believe in me and they tell me "you amaze us because you've gone through so much but you've never given up and you don't let your disabilities stop you" It's amazing what Jesus can do when you give your whole heart to him and I go through so much but I'm an inspiring young lady.

Every day I pray for a good boyfriend who would be able to calm down at nights, my pain and spasms get worse. I remember two years ago when I saw my youngest sister get married that night I cried allot because I wanted to be her and when I see her wedding band on her ring it hurts my inner soul. But it's made me a stronger person, everyone has a hard some people don't show it. I will find my soul mate until then I'll keep my focus on God and focus on what he is having me do through my disabilities. My disabilities are making me the person who I am today and if I wasn't disabled who knows where I'd be, my mind probably wouldn't be focused on Jesus. So in a way I'm glad that I am disabled, being single is making me stronger and my soul is getting stronger. I've had awesome relationships but God has removed them in my life for a reason. I was engaged but after a year I noticed that he wasn't the one for me even though he was nice. But my dad taught me that the guy needs to put God first such as I do, they need to go to church and believe that Jesus died for them and the most important bible verse that is John 3:16.